At this point, all readers from blog/myspace/facebook have been selected. We have another 10 in stand by for the following reasons
1 - some of them need visas. We cannot help in getting it, but they are struggling to solve this problem.
2 - some still need to confirm if they can take a few days off work.
3 - some of them still need to know if they can find accomodation in Paris.
I am going to send to the 10 stand by an email specifying that they may be selected, although this is not granted.
As for all other readers, thank you very much for your warmth, and we may find another way to meet during the year (I am open to suggestions!!!)
Love
Paulo
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Que pena que não fui uma das escolhidas….
Fica pra próxima então… mas com o coração
apertadinho de tristeza…
Beijo meu querido Mestre.
Fica bem
Dearest Paulo and friends,
Firstly i’d like to say that i admire you (Paulo) for reaching out into your admirers and giving them the opportunity to meet you on your special day. Most celebrites could care less, and wouldn’t even consider such an absurd request. However sir, i humbly suggest that maybe you should have another get together this year, choose a place you love, and invite readers to join you at their expense just for a day. I realise that your busy, and in great demand, but i also realise that you are a man who believes in the dreams of others.. And that you realise that for many people, meeting you is a dream. Not just because they love you, or they read your books, or because you’re famous but because your words have impacted directly on their lives.
Truthfully, i was pretty disappointed for not being ‘picked,’ - i didn’t exactlly expect to, but the thought of a magical night in paris, away from my life, that would revive my inspiration sounded wonderful to me. Oh and actually meeting you.. What a dream! I sat here thinking to myself, that i have two choices, one, stop writing here as this is a reflection that i’m clearly not really heard, (because you picked the individuals) or two, continue to write despite the set back. Is my writing here really worth it i asked myself? I actually wasn’t going to write, since this feeling just brought back many things, but you know, than i realised that there are hundreds of people, probably sitting there thinking the same thing. Are they just going to stop because of one silly rejection? What type of person will that make me? So, i decided to write and set myself free. I’ll just be dead honest i thought, after all although i’m not ‘chosen,’ i can still be heard. And you know what, so can anyone else. i love being heard, and writing here has become something i love to do daily, so i refuse to stop. Not for anyone. I love commenting on stories, or arguing my point, or even just suggesting something to someone. I love interacting with people, helping them, and most of all, thinking for myself. All these little comments, are part of who i am, and little by little, you and who ever else who reads it, will start to get to know me, as i myself, discover who i am. After this logic, i feel rather silly for even thinking about leaving, but i felt the need to share it, simply because i’m sure, somewhere out there, there are many people feeling the same way i did- questioning it all. I’m here to say, don’t be disappointed and if you are, get over it, rather smile, because this just leaves so much more room for self discovery, incredible words and dreams. No one here, should ever be discouraged by a rejection to the extent they give up what they love- in any aspect in life. Have some faith in the world people, everything happens for reason.
Thank you for being
Yajna
Dearest Paulo..
Just one last thing, one day sir, i’m going to meet you, and you’re going to smile and shake my hand, because you see, just as i know you through your words, you’d have learnt about me, through mine. Alright, i think i’ve said more than enough now- wow i feel empowered.. Anyway, do take care..
Thank you for being
Yajna
Dear Yajna,
Remember, God always gives us second chance, if we worth giving.
I, myself, would never, ever, stop with what I love, even though I would not be invited.
I would never stop loving.
Love defines us, makes us better, always.
I believe that if something is meant to be, it will happen, at this special, peculiar moment, your moment.
Miracles happen, if not today, some day.
We never know, that’s the point.
You don’t expect God to show all the beauty, in order for you to love Him.
You love, you trust.
He knows better, always,
because He loves every one of us.
lots of love
Agnieszka
Bueno en realidad no se que decir,quiza podria empezar con decirle que lo admiro muchisimo y quiza ya escucho eso un millon de veces,pero mi experiencia con sus libros fue incomparable.
El primer libro que lei,fue el alquimista,un obsquio de mi madre,pero no quise leerlo,me parecia,perdon,aburrido,
Un dia comenze a leerlo. Y me di cuenta de tantas cosas,puso un orden en mi vida,fue como si mi alma se reorganizara,yo tenia en ese entonces 13 años.
Hoy a mis 16 años he leido casi todos sus libros y he de confesar que han sido un pilar en la inspiracion en muchas de mis historias,por eso a usted,un gran hombre quisiera preguntarle:
¿que es lo que se debe hacer cuando se esta en medio de lo que se supone deberia hacer (estudiar medicina) o seguir lo que amo en realidad,escribir?
Gracias de antemano
Atte
andrea flores
de mexico
Dear Paulo
I was surprised to see that there’s actually some way to communicate with you. And i’m genuinely happy about it.
I admire your work. I have read most of it. My all time favorite is The Alchemist. I am a dreamer. I have big dreams and I work hard to attain them. But the route was never easy for me. SO more often than not, my dreams take a back seat in order for me to help my family.
Thank you for inspiring me to go on. I am only 23 but my shoulders are burdened with filial responsibilities. Reading your books made me appreciate the long, rocky road ahead.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Kamille
Paulo,
I hope you have a wonderful time at your gathering. I’m certain it will be magnificent. How I came across you as an author is an absolute mystery to me. The timing, the need for your book ‘The Alchemist’, seemed to be written in the wind. It sought me out like it was alive and destined for me. On top of that I now have a new blog to read and new friends to communicate with. Before long now I shall have read all your others and I shall be begining my own. You see, I am a believer in spiritual continuity. Whenever I read a poet or any other author, I become synchronised. From then on to an extent which relies only on focus, it emanates like a universal spirit. So now of course, I want to read whoever I can, but I decided to start with people who are still being inspired by those that have come before them. I am reading other peoples work and allowing my imagination to feel it and then writing a review for them, with that in mind. And then, if they were inspired by me, as I was them, they can come and contribute to our book. This is simply ground work and captures the essence of the community . The real work comes when people write something new based on something new being written about something that is perhaps now a little old but equally worth-full. It’s just seeing how things are coming from within people now and how we all affect each other. There are a few already contributing. I am very excited about writing the chapters and having some of the most inspirational characters deriving from the nature of inspiration itself. I once met a women on a train in my imagination, as we were traveling alongside a beautifully Green embankment. There was a mother hanging up washing in her back garden, which was blossoming perfectly. She waved at us both as we leaned from the rickety steam engines window. The women in my imagination learned of this story when I read her work set in a scene in her garden. She became the women waving at me, she was there. The person I was with was a third person inspired. It is truly wonderful. I thank you and many other authors for allowing me to recognise my gift and destiny.
Many regards and future correspondences,
A distant, unknown but compassionate friend.
Dear Yajna,
I believe that I understand what you mean and feel! I am a sensitive person and in general, rejections used to disappoint me pretty much. But, in time I realized that no matter what you recieve, praisals or rejections, you remain the same!
In fact, they don’t affect you, or they shouldn’t affect you in any way, your life goes on. :-)
I personally like your comments very much, I always read them with pleasure because you mean what you write, you are sincere and wise. :-)
When we react, in fact our Ego reacts. We should maintain a positive attitude all the time, you should let no one and nothing spoil your self-respect!
And you are very right, everything happens for a reason, in order for us to grow stronger!
So, if it matters to you at all, you have my appreciation for your comments and keep doing that, keep being yourself!
Shed only a tear if you feel like, I do that when I am feel its necessary to free myself and then forget about it! You are more resistant than you imagine and try not to expect anything from people, just love them, you don’t have to like them, just offer your compassion!
I understood that only God is the one who loves you completely, who never disappoints you. God is fair and even if some things may seem not fair, we are not objective. God loves us the most and this is all you need to know and feel!
I am sure that Paulo appreciates your comments too, maybe he had too many solicitations that he got a little bit confused in so many requests, after all, besides being a famous writer, he is a human being… Don’t worry about anything, believe in yourself and next time your wish will have the energy of the previous unfulfilled wishes too! I do that all the time and I avoid being disappointed and upset. Just accept, forgive and take nothing personally in order to spare yourself of unnecessary suffering! :-)
Much love,
Carmen Larisa
Yajna,
I for one would miss you here.
Kathleen xx
P.S. And one more thing: Dear Agnieszka, I appreciate what you write, your messages are so beautiful and it seems that you really cherish and put in practice unconditional love. You know and feel that God loves us and this is wonderful! Keep spreading Light and Love, my dear!
As for Paulo’ s intention put in action to organize a party and invite his readers, I believe it’s a noble gesture coming from a beautiful soul! :-)
My words come from the heart and in general, I love to say exactly what I feel, to be sincere and express my opinions, too. After all, freedom implies also to say what you mean, what you feel without worrying about the fact that others might change their opinions about you.
There is a quotation I like very much: “You don’t have to justify yourself. Those who appreciate you, don’t need it and those who don’t appreciate you, won’t understand anyway.”
May God bless the whole world with Love, Joy and beautiful surprises! :-)
Lots of love,
Carmen Larisa
Dear Mr. COelho,
Hi Mr. Coelho. I am Jonathan NIchole Castillo from Saint Michael’s College of laguna.
I read your book the Alchemist and it is inspires me so much.
I want to have my own journey someday.
I wish you would going to visit our country.
Good Luck and more published books to come.
truly yours,
Jonathan Nichole Castillo
Yajna,
Thanks to what you wrote me one day, my life has started to improve (I have to focus on positive things … ). Even if I didn’t write to say “thank you” I did it with my Heart. (I do not have the opportunity to use the computer (whether with tranquility or without it) every day).
But even when I cannot use the computer, I think about people who come here. Every day.
Ahhh … and I also understand what you are saying … I was crazy about meeting my dearest Paulo some day when I read for the first time one of his books … I was 24, and an angel (I’m serious) gave me “The Alchemist”. I couldn’t stop crying after reading that Journey to my Heart!!!
After that, I remember I went to the library and I bought all the books from him I could find on the shelves of the library :). I went home, and I read them all.
Five years has been since that part of my life and I am now remembering that girl. (You see … I’m crying again!!! Am I or not a lost cause? (a sweet smile … ).
***
(My friend, Paulo is open to new suggestions as he said so he will not escape his crazy fans … :)). Whether this year in Paris or in another place WE WILL MEET HIM SOME DAY :)). Him and the other people over here …
Love,
A
Friends,
Wow.. I didn’t expect such a response :) i feel really loved :) its good to know your appreciated at times, but truthfully i got over this yesterday and i hold nothing against Paulo :) i actually don’t mind going now, Carmen is right, that although rejection or even selections happen, they don’t change who you are. They shouldn’t define who you are. i do believe in miracles and in God agnieszka, and that everything will happen in good time. Thank you for you kind words Carmen :) , agnieszka and yours kathleen :) i love you all so much :) and i too look forward to reading your words everyday. I think i’d miss you guys if you’d leave.. Very much so. Its amazing how we get used to each other, and slowly big to get to know and respect each other more little by little with each comment.
i don’t know what else to say.. I just have this big smile on my face and i feel my eyes go lighter :) thank you friends :)
i will most certainly will stay :) forever if i can :)
mwah!
Lots of love
Yajna
Dear Carmen Larisa.
Thank You for Your kind words.
Yajna,
I’m happy that you’ll stay.
love
Agnieszka
Please share the list of all of those attending. It’s always good to know who’s on board. If if you (generally speaking) aren’t going to be there:)
Hi there,
I am Matthew and I just wanted to say hi to you all. So, Hi! I have been reading the comments all day and wanted to mention to you that I too thought it was a grace of god to find Paulo on the weekend just gone, and then to be given a chance to meet him was a very nice surprise, and because I read The ‘Alchemist’ on Sunday, it felt so much like I was involved in some universal force. I gave Paulo a link to my writers profile and when I check the link, all the work on the website had disappeared. That felt like something even crazier. I had no backups, so I figured I was only a writer by spirit, as I has no more work. So you see what I am saying is that what does change us is understanding who we are. I am a writer so loosing my work changes nothing. I will carry on writing. It is all I can do to learn more about myself and the friends of the earth.
I logged into my E-mail and I thought ‘if there is a mail, then all is confirmed. It has to be. This is my destiny’. There was no mail. So what then? I thought ‘does that mean it is not destiny? Something had lost all my work, all of my energy and heart and spirit was in that work and no it’s gone. This must mean I am not supposed to write, surely?’ I can’t believe it friends; I am a writer. My heart tells me so. All I need to learn is how I write better so everything I give to people as a gift is well received. This is a gift, from me to you, I hope it find you all well, my new friends. Upon your precious heart, a bestowal of tranquility gently falls. Sister to the staid moon in the evening sky- bequeathed to you is a calmness and love for all of life. Remember, the wind blows freely, clashing with nothing, welcomed- calved by nature herself. With lively, childish rain falling from far out heights onto soft, nutritious land. It is never to be seen as baron again. Life grows in many forms in our eyes, but in only one form in our hearts.
Matthew
A warrior of light does not give up and is not discouraged after the first trial went wrong!
I will wait with patience and confidence till time is ripe!
Dear friends,
I really appreciate every moment spent with you, here.
It makes me happy to know that there are many great, wise, kind people, who think and feel so similar.
Too bad that we are scattered all around the world.
I wanted to share something with you.
Everything that is happening here, is because of ….Paulo.
He gives us this space to talk, to experience, to communicate with each other.
I really am grateful for that and I know that you are, too.
What makes me sad, is that some of you feel rejected, or disappointed, somehow.
You shouldn’t have.
You should know that He loves every one of us.
Who, on earth would invite his readers, fans, to join him for His party?
I cannot think of anybody. Could you?
But it’s not easy to chose, if you are limited by numbers.
It’s just technically not possible,
And you all know that.
So why are you disappointed?
We, warriors of the Light, should never feel like that, especially in this environment.
If we love, if we have, had, great moments with each other, with Paulo,……then Why?
I don’t know, maybe I am too sensitive, but somehow I feel this …vibe…
love to you all,
Agnieszka
love. thank you to each of you sharing yours. it is wonderful to see. love.
Dear Paulo
Oh I wish I were going *sighs* Still , I think it is a wonderful idea. I am sure you will all have a fabulous time. Brightest blessings to you all. May the longtime Sun shine on you that day .
love and hugs
Mara
Paulo, there’s an annual writers’ festival in Ubud, Bali - a very spiritual place that I love to go to.
If, by any chance, you are thinking of attending that festival one day, pls let us know, and I’ll hop on the plane immediately and fly over to meet you! (it’s only 2 hours from where I live)
¡Hola! Soy asidua lectora de su artículo en el diario El Universo de Guayaquil- Ecuador. Me gustó mucho el artículo que habló sobre los 60 años y quisiera también que hablara sobre el valor de la amistad y algún otro mensaje sobre la soberbia. Muchas gracias María.
Sounds so nice, wish I could come, someday!! Have fun and take so many picts!!!!!!
Love,
Sun
I just wanted to say that I can’t belive how much love(your love for other people) I feel when I reed your messages. Increible:)
Thank you:)
Love Tanja
A,
Thank you for your words, but they are not necessary. I realised that you were going through a difficult time in your life, and like the best of us, you reached out. I’m fulfilled with happiness knowing that i’ve made a difference to you. I’ll always be here my friend :) And whatever the problem is, hang in there, have some faith and things will work out. Mwah!
A,
Thank you for your words, but they are not necessary. I realised that you were going through a difficult time in your life, and like the best of us, you reached out. I’m fulfilled with happiness knowing that i’ve made a difference to you. I’ll always be here my friend :) And whatever the problem is, hang in there, have some faith and things will work out. Mwah!
A,
Thank you for your words, but they are not necessary. I realised that you were going through a difficult time in your life, and like the best of us, you reached out. I’m fulfilled with happiness knowing that i’ve made a difference to you. I’ll always be here my friend :) And whatever the problem is, hang in there, have some faith and things will work out. Mwah!
Agnieszka,
I do agree completely what your saying.. Paulo is most definitely a wonderful man, and he certainly does owe you or me anything, let alone the opportunity to actually spend an evening with him. I know myself, and i know why i reacted the way i did. Allow me explain- over the last few months i’ve been dealing with a break up that really messed me up. I seem to getting back to myself, little by little each day. The day i actually read about his party, i ran into an old friend who told me alot of things that just brought everything back, and i saw going to paris as a way out. The prefect way to get away.. And the perfect excuse to just find a way out of my life for a bit. See something spectacular and get inspired. So, as you can see, the hurt of rejection had nothing really to do with Paulo at all. It was mostly me, and when i wrote earlier, i just sat down and i thought that i’m tired of wanting to run. If i feel disappointed in anything, i’m going to deal with it, and me writing it down, and addressing it was so that i can be dead honest with myself. I am very glad that i did so, because i’m honestly free of it and a step closer to healing completely. I know that, the message may seem somewhat immature and crazy fanatic like, but it wasn’t my intention, my intention was to write my truth regardless of what anyone thought so that i could be alright.
I hope that this will give you a bit more insight with regard to me..
lots of love dear
Yajna
Dearest Paulo,
Sir, i apologise if my previous comments gave you the impression that i am ungrateful for all that you have done. I’ve been dealing with alot on my plate, and reached a point where i just needed to be honest and deal with with whatever was going through me. I can not apologise for what i said or rather, wrote in that moment because it helped me to be free of it, with other things- which i needed to be free of. I just hope that you don’t hold it against me in any manner or judge me by this. I know you don’t know me, and i could be a crazy fan for all you know, but i’m not sir. I’m me. A working progress. And i just wanted to tell you, that i am very very grateful for you and all you’ve done for me. I opened up here when i was so hurt i refused to talk to anyone. I slowly began to think for myself again with each story and i began remembering who i am. I’ve come a long way since i started writing here, i’ve made many friends, and its thanks to you i was given the opportunity. You’re remarkable, and i hope that one day i can impact the lives of others positively as you have. Thank you Paulo, from the bottom of my heart.
Oh and.. Have a wonderful birthday, i know that who ever attends is ment to and will experience an amazing evening.
Thank you for being
Yajna
Dear Yajna
I honestly believe that you are speaking for over 1.000 readers that sent the request.
However, in your first post, you mention that we (meaning we all) should try to meet. I had an idea a few months ago, to ask the Melk Abbey, a wonderful place in Austria, to gather a meeting with my readers. But the monks (and they are just great, believe me) did not agree, not knowing how many people will show up.
The same goes for me: if we organize something, how can I manage to find a place? For a party it is easy - we know that the boat has 125 places, we mmanaged to get an extra 15 seats. But if you have any concrete suggestion, not only I am open, but I will do my best to implement it.
In the near future, I will put a question here: how can we meet? Then, you post your comment there.
Love
Paulo
Dearest Paulo..
Thank you for your response. i know that you are in a difficult situation trying to please everyone. I was honestly speaking on behalf of most of the readers who are disappointed as they aren’t able to meet you. Truthfully it is a dream of mine. Maybe we can find a way.. I’ve been thinking, that i agree with the monks that you can’t just have a gathering with readers. As wonderful as it sounds, without an estimation of guests you can easily create chaos which won’t achieve anything. However you mention a party is easy because of the organisation. So if your honestly up for a challenge i have an idea to meet readers- that is if you want to. Instead of having one huge gathering, with no order, why not do what you do for the party? I propose that you, Invite people. In which ever city your scheduled to be in, over the next year, pick 4 or so venues, that are no inconvenience to you. Pick even a restaurant, and get it hired out for a night.. And get whoever is coming, to pay per head. So you don’t incur any expenses for the place. Spend an evening with your readers. But use the same system- get them to get their on their own, and apply in each category. Don’t choose alot of people because it will just decrease the chances of an intimate evening. Maybe 50 people or so. I know that, you can’t possibly meet all your readers, and you do have a busy schedule, but if you work it out, 4 evenings this year of your time, you could meet close to 200 readers. I know its not a 1000 readers dreams fulfilled, but it is 150 more than ones thats invited to your party. I do realise that meeting readers, on a continual basis can also be tiring for you, but even 2 more evenings this year could make the dreams of 100 people come true. If you want to continue this next year and so on, you’ll eventually meet so many more readers. I hope that you consider this- i’d love to help in anyway i can, so just let me know :) if i do come up with any other plans, i’ll let you know. Thanks again for your response.
Thank you for being
Yajna
Paulo-
Sorry a couple more things- you could even open it up to your readers, and say, i’ll be in berlin for a week, if i were to meet, where would you suggest? That is, if you don’t know any places. Maybe even the monks will allow you to have a gathering if they knew what to expect as well. Also, to add more organisation to your selection process, you can have a different email address for each community, and request any applicants apply once to their most used community. Which can give slightly more order. I do realise that this alot, and i don’t want to inconvenience you in any manner, but if you work around your schedule, and your seriously interested in meeting more readers, i think it could definitely work with a little help.
Thank you for being
Yajna
Dear Yajna,
I wish you love,
I wish you smile.
What do you wish?
Light in the sky?
Believe in God,
and never cry.
He’ll make your
life better than
smile.
love
Agnieszka
Dear Yajna,
I do believe you are a great person !!!
lots of love
Agnieszka
Dear Paulo,
you are one of those people who will be remembered as long as human beings live on earth . your a very great writer and inspirer for all of us . no one has bridged all cultures and languages like you . and i am so proud to have read your books. as a fellow writer a congratulate you on keeping up with all your fans and answering each of there question .
i have 2 requests and 3 question.
1- my first request is why don’t you conceder making a book that can help other writers to write ! if i am an armature writer i want to learn from the best, right ?
I do believe that everybody knows how to write. But I will write some columns on how do I write
2- why don’t you make a week each year for your fans ? you can travel to different places all around the world each year and make a open talk seminar with the fans . you will announce the date and place in your website and we will come.
I ‘ve being doing that, accepting signings in different cities. I will do that this year.
3- my questions is what did you had in mind when you started to write your first book ?
4- and how did you struggle to publish it ?
5-and what was your dreams before you began writing ?
i thank you for allowing us to communicate with you directly.
i hope one day to meet you , and to invite you to my home town Jeddah in Saudi Arabia . and i hope to take a picture with you .
note: your books are very well translated into Arabic.
Keep enlightening us with your book.
Best Wishes,
Dr. Mohammad Hatem Bahareth
Hi
I had the same suggestion for Paulo as Yajna did
- meet up in various cities around the world, or even better than cities, wide open green spaces, it’s not a chance to meet just Paulo but other readers too, which would be nice; a weekend camping, that’s what I reckon.
Matthew
Thank you for your beautiful words
Yajna
Extra love to you ;)
LOVE
very nice ,thanks
i’ve been coming to this site everydday for almost a year. dreaming for an opportunity to meet paulo. i was very sick for 2 weeks i was in bed. and didn’t have the chance to visit the blog. i can’t believe i just missed my opportunity to meet him. i was shocked when i read that he invited readers to meet him.
i feel so sad…
This is going 2 be beautiful!!!!!
Dear Paulo,
friends,
I’ll be missing You, you all.:-(
I’m leaving for a few days.
See you,
love
Agnieszka
hi my best writer.
I really love you.
I am a boy of iran and thinking about god everyday and now i understand that there is no god. may be wrong may be not wrong but now i am in this place. everything in this world become dark for me. my power to live was god and now i have no power to live. and i know that no one can help m, i am falling and only wy is suicide. yes, i want to kill myself and escape from everything. now i hate myself, because after investigation i know that i was a monkey befor and now i am an animal with little differents. maybe you can help me. maybe …
love you.
Dearest Siamak
There is someone who can save you, and that is you my dear. I know that i don’t know you, whats happened in your life, or why you’ve lost your faith in God. But i do know that suicide is not the way out. It only causes more pain, and it is something that i’ve lived through personally. Please don’t give up just yet. It would be such a waste. I believe that you’ve come here because as much as you’ve given up, you still are reaching out for some kind of hope. I know life can be beyond terrible, people can be manipulative, and one can be so filled with regret and sorrow that life feels more like an entrapment. But you know, life gets better and you shouldn’t just run away without giving it a chance. However bad your life could have gotten- thats how good it can get. Open yourself up to the world and look around you, don’t only see the bad, but look at the good. As hard as it may be to believe, it still exists. You’re not alone, and at worst, you still have friends here. If there is anything i can do to help you, i will gladly do it. You’re not alone, and as hard as it may be to see right now, everything happens for a reason in this world. I know i can’t tell you anything that will completely restore your faith in God. I can tell you He loves you, and He is there, but i’m not sure if will sink in. What i’d rather tell you, is close your eyes, and remember a moment a joy, remember your dream, and what you love. Remember what love is. That feeling. You can still make it siamak. You can still have everything this world has to offer, and you deserve it. God is with you my friend, whether you believe it or not right now, won’t change the fact that He still lives inside you. Love still exists inside of you. You still have the power to be everything you’ve dreamed of.. You just have to believe- and just say- screw this, i’m going to find way! You are so very loved.. Not only by God by even by me :) And i know that somehow, you still have God guiding you. Don’t give your life up because life is tough, don’t give your life up because people have messed you over. Don’t give them that right. You are your own person, and you are beautiful. Forget everyone else and what they think. You said you hate yourself- have thought that maybe you hate what you’ve become? The way i see it, is that if you dislike what you are, than change. You have the power to! You can’t change the past but you can change the future. Look inside yourself and remember who you are and where you want to be, start to love yourself again. give life a chance and you’ll find out why God guided you down this particular path in the first place. Remember one last thing friend, come talk here if you have no one, i’ll listen, and soon you’ll be free of it, you’ll heal, and you’ll realise you’re not alone, and are loved, not only by us but by God and yourself.
May God bless you, and help you realise the strength you have inside you to get through this. Don’t give up yet. There’s still hope. I have faith in you.
lots of love
Yajna
Dearest Paulo,
I was thinking.. That if you do consider having various meeting with your readers the way i said so earlier, maybe you should have 3. One for each community- so that readers that are used to corresponding to each other can also meet in person. I like Leaf’s idea of open spaces, but it all depends on you, and your schedule of course. I hope you do consider this. I’d love to help- i find this somewhat challenging and i know what it would mean to most people. Either way, do take care. Mwah :)
Thank you for being
Yajna
Agnieszka,
I think you’re absolutely lovely :)
hope you be back soon :)
mwah :)
Yaj
Dear Siamak,
Don’t give up hope. Hope is what God offers you. Pray to God, ask for a sign and be open to that sign.
There is a story I have read about a young boy from the depression era in Ireland, its called “Angela’s Ashes” by Frank McCourt. He tells the story about how his father abandoned his mother and small children and they were always near starving - but that glimmer of hope and faith is what kept them alive and now he is a world famous writer.
Do what you can to keep your mind on something that you love. Maybe you also like to write. If you write down the things that are worrying you sometimes that helps to alleviate things, like you are unburdoning yourself. Also when you look at it on paper, your problems can appear different to you.
With love and warm hugs, take care of your self sweetheart.
There are people out there who care.
Kathleen xxxx
Dear Siamak,
Be patient. Some things take time.
You will find God where you did not expect.
Love will show you the way.
Endure this dark period, by the power of your beautiful and unique soul.
MESSAGE FOR SIAMAK
Siamak, I don’t know what you are living through, but I understand it to be very hard. I am really sorry that you have to experience such hardship, but you have found Paolo’s writings and you have left us your note, and that is a sure sign that you are a survivor. Keep talking, Siamak, keep sharing and keep hoping.
Who knows, perhaps we’ll meet one day at some party… How cool would that be!
much love
g
x
Paolo,
Such a great idea of yours to organise a birthday party in Paris with your readers; incredibly lovely thing to do!
Have fun.
g
x
ps IF I were to have a birthday party would you come? (this is addressed to you Paolo but also to all who have written above)
Dearest Yajna
I know that there are lovely people like you and people behavior is not my problem. now let me tell my story:
i was muslim. because my father and my mother was muslim. after years I know that there are many lies in Islam and I was played with some liers.stories in quran were like legends and I could not believe them. I was confused because I lost my god too. I must find new god, I thought that there is god and I must find it. so I tried studing another religion. then I found that they have many lies too.I could not find my god in them. Should I beleive their lies and live like a stupid animal? maybe if I did not find their lies the condition was better and I imagine myself a king of worlds that must go to heaven ( like religion faith). let me tell you a secret: I have no skills for living. I must put pressures on myself to do my jobs. my only hope to accept these pressures was god. I thought that I have a soul from him and my soul goes to the best things (I was really stupid). then I started to search again and found lovely paulo. he talked about different things. I think that he invite people to have love for living and I found it better than religions.but I found my feellings result of chemical actions in my body and I could not accept that those are from my soul so I could not respect them. after months I understood stranges things. Do you know why paula is a good writer? why is not he a good biologist? I know it. because being good writer is in his blood and he just make a little condition to use it. maybe you tell me that everyone can do it with practice but I can not accept it. I saw many people that practice to do something but after all they can not do it like a professional and someones can not do it even like an amateur. maybe thinking in suicide is in blood too ( “sadegh hedayat” was a writer that killed himself and said suicide is in blood of someones) and I think that any reaction of people is in their bloods and they must do what their bloods say.
an actor must do acting, a writer must do writing and … and someone that have not skills in his blood must do nothing and if try to do something must accept bad conditions and his worthless character and I don’t want to accept my worthless personality. when I can not believe in another world (after dying) and I don’t want to accept my worthless character I must die. maybe this song from “Linkin Park” can tell my feellings:(this song has selected from “minutes to midnight” album)
Linkin Park:Given Up
Wake in a sweat again
Another day’s been laid to waste
In my disgrace
Stuck in my head again
Feels like I’ll never leave this place
There’s no escape
I’m my own worst enemy
I’ve given up, I’m sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all away, I’m suffocating
Tell me what the f…ck is wrong with me
I don’t know what to take
Thought I was focused, but I’m scared
I’m not prepared
I hyperventilate
Looking for help, somehow, somewhere
And no one cares
I’m my own worst enemy
I’ve given up, I’m sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all away, I’m suffocating
Tell me what the f…ck is wrong with me
GOD!
Put me out of my misery!
Put me out of my misery!
Put me out of my…
Put me out of my f…cking misery!
I’ve given up, I’m sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all away, I’m suffocating
Tell me what the f…ck is wrong with me
Hola espero que todo bien
Le he dejado un premio en mi blog, si quiere puede pasar a recogerlo
Muchas gracias,
Un fuerte abrazo
Cristina
Were you ready for this?
I told my story and now i see that my comment is deleted.
see you in another world ( if there is an another world)
Dear Siamak,
Why do you even talk about suicide? Do you think that killing yourself is the answer, really? It’s not, because the problems you have now will come with you wherever you go, under what form you may be and what you might become…
I strongly believe in reincarnation and the suffering here, at this level, at the physical one is less painful than those at other levels, mental and spiritul ones… At least the pain we have here, on Mother Earth are bearable; but you don’t know at all what expects you on other realms. I assure you that life has a beautiful and noble purpose, of evolving, God gave us the wonderful gift of life, who are we to terminate it?
I also believe that you are depressed, we all have our ups and downs in our lives, but this doesn’t mean that we should not go on! This is the beauty, my dear Simak, that we grow stronger and more determined than before to find the Truth, to be the Light!:-)
Just don’t identify with your negative thoughts, be yourSelf, the Divine sparkle in you, find your soul and be brave! :-) Life will reward you when you are on the right path of Enlightment!
Lots of love and many hugs,
Carmen Larisa
P.S. You just need to feel loved and understood, dear Siamak! :-) You need attention and care to find the power of healing in yourself. There are encouragements from virtual friends above and hopefully they will be the ignition to light your fire of Love inside your heart! You are not alone, we are never alone, but we often don’t feel God’s protection because we forget how to love, to share the joy of living with the others, we should never underestimate the power of collectivity!
Hopefully these suggestions will be useful… For me, meditation at Sahaja Yoga did wonders in my life to transform it for the better and the book “the Secret” by Rhonda Byrne is also great
. But to have a positive attitude and to maintain it all the time, or at least most of time, you should believe in God, the others and yourself and feel Love and Gratitude in your heart forever!
You have problems, indeed but things can be worse, don’t forget that… That’s why, the forces of good should be in our hearts, minds and lives forever, to protect us even from ourselves!
We are the product of our past, of our past attitude and thoughts, and the future will be the result of our present mentality and attitude. Our lives are the products of our merits and we should accept that, instead of blaming only others and circumstances. We are the designers of our lives and it depends on us what we draw every day…
May God bless the whole world with lots of affection and purity! :-)
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Dear Siamak,
the only advice I can give you is to go (or call) at once to someone you know and tell him or her about your thoughts. You will be surprised that there are people next to you that will understand you and can help you. You never are alone with your problems, everybody knows someone who is prepared to lend an ear - dare to go out and believe it is true.
Of course you crisis will not be over soon, but for the moment you are sitting in a dark tunnel and you see no way out, but also a little bit of light will help you to find a new point of orientation.
What do you exspect of comitting suicide? Do you think this way you can punish yourself for the hate you feel inside?
Or punish those people you are thinking of they don’t love you?
Time is healing wounds and especially when you are still young you will have a lot of chances in front - even if you are not willing to believe this yet!
If there is a God or not - life itsself is a present you should not throw away!
Dearest Siamak,
I pray that you’re alive and healthy to read this. Firstly, i don’t believe that taking one’s life is in anyone’s blood. I can understand your depression, and the way you feel worthless as times because of your jobs but i don’t feel that you should give up and take your life- i feel that maybe you just haven’t figured out what you really love to do and what you’re very good at, and you certainly aren’t going to find it by killing yourself. Don’t kid yourself thinking that because you’re unsure of what you believe in or what your good at is reason in enough to end your life! Its not! Do you realise what you will do to your parents, and the people who love you? Do you realise that by harming yourself you are harming them as well? Killing them inside? I know just how bad it can be, i lost a someone who was a brother to me and God knows it still kills me inside everyday.
I know a very fair amount about the muslim religion, and i know that especially in a muslim society, living in it and not believing in it is very harsh on an individual- especially when it comes to parents as well. So i can not begin to imagine the problems you’ve had just by stepping out of the daily rituals. It is also a very strict religion, that an islamic person has to live in without questioning it. It takes courage to say, i don’t believe in that, especially in your society and the fact that you started searching around in other religions to find your truth shows that you did make an effort to try. But why did you stop? Why are you giving up? I don’t understand. Can you honestly say that you’ve looked at all the religions or even beliefs of spirituality to find God and have not found it? Really do you think you’ve done EVERYTHING? I don’t believe you have. Let me tell you a secret: most people don’t know what they want in life, or what or who God is. But they do know, that somewhere, somehow something exists, and if they don’t, they believe in themselves and who they are. Most people spend their lives discovering what exactly it is for them to do, what they are good at and what they love. Change your life if you’re pressured- try do somethin you like. Don’t give up just because you are lost. Don’t be so stupid, and don’t hurt the people you love like that. And as for Paulo’s work- i don’t know what you mean by a chemical reaction in your body? I’m studying to be a doctor and i know about the body fairly but i believe in Paulo’s work. I believe in the secret as carmen mention, and i’m in a staunch religion but i believe in love, and life is worth living, and it is. My friend, rethink yourself, you’re not trapped, THERE IS ALWAYS A CHOICE, TRY. TRY to live, and search. Be positive and we’ll all talk about things here. Come and share your worries and problems with someone you can trust, and if you don’t want to, come talk here but please don’t end your life. Its so precious. And if you wait, you’ll see just how much. One last thing, life’s not as bad as it seems, you proved it to yourself- you thought your story got deleted but infact in didn’t. You let fear and hurt get the best of you, when really there was only good and you didn’t see it. Have you ever thought that maybe you looking at your life like that?
Lots of love
Yajna
Siamek,
Do you have the means to pack up and leave your home and country and get out into the world?
To look at the world through other’s eyes might help you also. Take the time to heal, don’t punish yourself. Don’t worry if you are not Brilliant at something. I think what is more important is how what you do affects others. You may in some small way help others with what you do.
Love Kathleen xxx
Dearest Paulo,
I’m not very sure if you will get this, because i’m commenting on a fairly old post. I just thought i’d share something with you. Its amazing how life turns out, sometimes we (forgive my french) bitch and moan about certain disappointments, and as time continues we see that these disappointments turns out to be for the best.
The way my life has changed now, i see that coming to your party would be nearly impossible, well, if i did, it would be at a great expense (not just financially) and truthfully i think it would have been far worse for me to turn down that offer (had i been asked)). So sir, i’m here to say thank you, ironically enough, for not inviting me. However, i am glad i stirred up something here a bit, i did learn alot, and i am glad that you are thinking about ways to meet more fans. If i can help with any planning in the future, just let me know, i’d love to help anyone meet you (even if its not me) because i know what it feels like to be in this position, and i do have some organising abilities.
I truely admire you, not just for your work, but the way you carry yourself as a celebrity. You use your resources for good, and you do not see yourself above others (fans specifically), more so you try to accomodate your fans. I hope that you do not think less of me for challenging you earlier as i may have sounded somewhat ungrateful (which was not my intention).
Do take care,
Thank you for being,
Yajna