In Brida, a book of mine that will published in various countries (from March onwards), I explore the theme of sexuality. Even though I don’t treat it as deeply as in my book 11 Minutes, it seems to me that sex opens the doors of perception. What’s your take on that?
Love,
Paulo
Does sex opens the doors of perception?
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If we can transmute our desire for sex into creative energy that’s when we are at our creative peak because the brain goes into a higher vibration. That’s why ‘behind every great man is a great woman’ because men need to feel highly sexed with woman they love to achieve mental optimum! But it also said that, like eastern tai-chi masters taught, men shouldn’t climax without love, too easily or too often, so that they can retain their vital ‘chi’ energy, and direct it spiritually (and I would argue creatively). So male mid-life crisies with ‘trophy wives’ often leads to a man’s downfall in life in general, and younger men who dissipate their sexual energy too easliy when younger, find that as they get older and more aware and in control of their sex drive, they become more successful in life. So I say use sexual energy wisely to focus your creative genius!
Making Love is the ultimate expression you can have for your partner whom you were destined to be with for all of eternity, in the garden of eden. It is the Holy Will of G-d for you to accept His original design for your life. He is not the author of divorce, the Holy Spirit is not the spirit of lying and deception. Love gives off light when there is the absence of evil in the spirit.
This world mostly seeks after false love; a young confused woman wants “her” Christ and yet there is only One.
A whore wants salvation yet seeks false refuge in idols.
Another Rabbi looks to marry his daughter yet he denies the existance of the Son and His Angels.
An Author writes an amazing love story about true love for his daughter yet does not seek the sheperd boy.
A Son realizes He is the Angel’s Son, and cannot find love in a world that rejects his soveriegn authority.
A daughter is born into the world, never knowing her true father because her mother is too scared to face the truth.
People are born into the world and they fall like princes, flowers whither like faded glory, men seek honor among ignobles, the rich oppress the voice of the poor,
Teachers become students to disciples who are old souls in the world and the meek inherit the earth.
Love is a Rainbow.
Sex can bring you to a place of meditation and can allow you to transcend the earthly world and feel at one with the universe and touch God. Spiritual sex can only happen for me when I am channelling love to my partner and myself. It is the most beautiful, nurturing and erotic thing on earth. It is so bonding and fulfilling.
I lost sight of this and am just recently rediscovering it.
Any sex that causes shame has the opposite effect and can cut us off from our true self and block God from our lives. Only our true self can have a relationship with God. You need some vulnerability to do this and shameful sex can make us run and hide from being vulnerable. If we are ashamed it can ruin our life until we deal with that shame. A good way to prevent shame is by having the confidence to only engage in sexual behaviour that your true self chooses. Having and defending boundaries. Stopping anyone from crossing those boundaries, and if someone does cross them, we need to realise that we had no power in that situation, it is not our fault, that it is ok to express in tears and screams the feeling it created and to let it go without guilt or shame.
i think i can better tell after experiencing such thing in my life………….
It does and i think the choice or the experience is open to all. Love transforms the sexual energy and opens the doors IF both partners are alert. That is to say aware effortlessly. If not ,then ” sex” becomes simply a source of relieving oneself , which i feel then becomes an incomplete act and a rather narrow view of looking at not just intimacy but at life itself.
I haven’t read Brida but have read and liked the way you approached the subject in eleven minutes .
Cheers
B
ragini por favor no sufra màs por lo que le paso DIOS es tan misericordioso que a este tiempo ya perdono su actuaciòn no piense mas en eso tenga paciencia que ud està perdiendo mucha energìa y luz en estos malos recuerdos le digo por lo que le ocurriò y como se porto su novio, el no vale la pena nunca valiò la pena porque ni siquiera fue un hombre respetuoso y considerado menos siente amor ud tiene mucho amor aùn en su corazòn dediquese a hacer cosas buenas por ud por su familia por sus amigos y DIOS la bendecira con un nuevo amor ocupe su tiempo en tantas cosas que nos da la vida levantese y admire el dia el mar la lluvia el sol el agua y todos los seres vivos que habitan en planeta goze de cada detalle de la vida y ya no habrà màs sufrimiento en su corazòn. cuando hay amor seguro que sì nos habre las puertas de la percepcion y hasta de cielo
In the past I would’ve said no. Yes, now.
When you’re touched in that way you learn about parts of yourself that you didn’t know existed and could be aroused to such an extent and then when you do the same move back to your partner and they like it, you learn that others can be stimulated in the same places as you and you find a common link between yourself and your lover.
Or if you’re touched in a place you love to be touched and you do the same to your partner and they don’t love it, you learn about your own individual quality to be aroused in certain areas….
i think brida exists in every woman..she starts her quest in innocence and trust…..she and her two soul mates…her spiritual guide is her faith and the trust in it causes her to make choices which can not be questioned..i enjoyed this out of usual look at sex as a soul searching tool.thanks for being this master story teller.
I THINK SEX NOT ONLY OPENS THE DOOR OF PERCEPTION BUT ALSO REVEALS THE ESSENCE OF PROLONGING JOY AND BLISS OUT……….
Don’t forget that giving happiness brings happiness.’(F. Nietsche). We use the word sex too much in our life and making love is so much better. Sex fot eh sex itself is boring and deprived of meaning (i have so much in my life to the moment i hated myself). Make love:)
Well sex came for me as unexpected. Like two stray dogs circling one another, trying to figure out whether its ok or not.
anyway from what ive read in posts, there are many perceptions of sex, very spiritual and open :), even basic/ animalistic.
I take it as showing how vulnerable you are, how fun you can be, willing,(add your unique perception here)
I like longing for the feelings of the first time with someone, while thinking of how much longing i would have for them the last one… treating it as if its the last time with my love, showing her how much longing i would have is great!
How you are in bed sais a lot about you.
How you become in time, whether the passion lasts or fades, or even gets better everytime.;)
Your perception on sex is your own.
I think sex opens our perceptions truly when done with love. :)
My first experienced with seks was not nice at all, although I was always curious about it…as a young age,I grown up very conservative place, but I noticed I have a very good imagination about seks to be clearly like fairy tales story, but because is seks forbidden, maybe of relegious matter but my parents said always get marriage first and then you are allowed to have seks with someone you marry.In thay way my father ( not God my real father okay ) are relax with that, my mother of course never say anything as far I remember as young age. In someway I’m become more closedd to my father he is more open, we are six girls and three boys seblings. It’s hard for me to reminding my mind but I would like to contenue this forum. I need some time…
hello, Paulo, How can love open the doors for perception??? Can you write more about perception. Some ways that we can develop more. Thanks.
el sexo puede unir a dos personas de una manera tal, que ellos pueden llegar a elegir no tener sexo con ninguna otra persona que no sea esa, la que despierta todos sus sentidos…
se puede amar, querer, apreciar a otros individuos, pero aquel que se desea carnalmente en horas de soledad…difícilmente es reemplazado por otro.
no es fácil encontrar el sexo y el amor en la misma persona.
hELLO.!!
Para mi el sexo es lo mas importante en el ser humano como muchas otras cosas, si es con amor obviamente pues es lo maximo, el sexo es copenetracion de mente, alma cuerpo y espiritu, yo siempre me entrego con mi esposo o no, para mi es una experiencia total, que me lleva a la extratosfera. por ende si abre las puertas de la percepcion, ahora toda relacion entra por el sexo.
Saludos desde Venezuela
Lis.
for me sex is the time when all things started,even the incident of being constantly touched by my brother when i was 5 introduced me into sadness and then the search,as i was 19 something,moved out of housei “happened to” read osho’s sex to superconsciousness,thats when i decided i am ready to experience the untalkable( in a modern hindu society )i thought in my anger,”if what he did to me wasn wrong and my parents cant talk about it and take a step,then what i do is not wrong” then asked a guy i hardly knew and who also wanted to experiment,we turned out to be in a relationship for 3 yrs,learnt all the secrets together,meditated together,got married on a beach,fought,got back together many times,broke up many more times and finally let go,but i didn know i could love someone so deeply till i opened up to sex ….my rebirth from me
after reading your comment…i can only say, Waaaoooo!!!
we both think alike. when i first had pre marital sex, i thought i made the biggest mistake due to cultural and religious reasons. but it just made me a different person. more perceptive about life and people. and more confident of myself… it was MY REBIRTH…
Definitely. Sex brings out the best in you, if done with your lover or your mate. If you love someone and make love to them, it enriches you. It in ways, purifies you.
But I’ve had sex with so many men. It has destroyed my mental state of mind. It once was beautiful, now i feel ugly.
So, sex with the right person can open up your mind, but done with people for the pleasure of sex, only and slowly perishes you.
i do agree with you sophie… i’m an arab girl who had sex with her boyfriend who is older than her with 12 years… i’ve been in love with him for 5 years when i’m with him i feel exactly as you said, making love to him purifies me enriches me … unfortuantly i can’t marry this person for some reasons, and i guess you know it’s not allowed as a tradition in our countries for the girls to have sex before marriage… many girls do that but secretly…
for a period of time i’ve decided to walk away from him to see if i can live without him and by Coincidence i’ve met with one of my old friends and we started hanging out together we cuddled ..kissed but i didnt have sex with him… but to tell you the truth i felt that i’m so discusting and so UGLY… thank you for posting this and i hope that i’ve added something to the blog… very warm regards to Paulo who i do really admire
Yes, absolutely…Sex does open the door of perception and even more. In my life I was able to make the experience that whenever I had days or even weeks of having daily good sex, the energy of my mind was so strong that I reached my high goals and my dreams.
With good sex I mean a union of two people who see the light in each other ..it’s the real love of two soulmates,taken during the association of earth, water, fire and wind. Their energy is one and they fly together.When people think that a few hundred years of education can erase some million years of evolution by killing the animal in themselves…I think they are not able to make this wonderful experience… they are not able to loose themselve in their senses…just being headcontrolled …and have to learn to let themselves fall into the deepest corners of their heart and soul.
MARAVILLOSO EL DESCUBRIMIENTO QUE ENCUENTRO EN EL SEXO.
PERO AL HACER EL AMOR MANIFIESTO TOTALMENTE LO QUE SOY Y PUEDO SENTIR LA APERTURA A LO NUEVO CON EL SER HUMANO QUE ME ACOMPAÑA, PUES YA NO SOY YO, AHORA SOMOS DOS LOS QUE DESCUBRIMOS MUCHAS COSAS MAS, PUES, ES ALGUIEN QUE TIENE ALGO QUE COMPARTIRME Y YO ENTREGARLE. LA EXPERIENCIA ES FASCINANTE CUANDO LA PERSONA ESTA EN SINTONIA CONMIGO.
Hi,
Sex only …NO but each rule has his exceptions…
Sex like an expression of a Sharing Love between two persons, surely, does it mean, they will attempt to paradise instantly ? most of the time, No… cos like all important things Sex gives you back what you brings,
Being united make us stronger, add Love, Add Sharing, Add all positive feelings you may imagine…, Then Body and minds become divine, Like in Tantrism,
A fact is that after three years of living having sex one time a day, at least, i’ve been enthused to realize, it was blasting like we met yesterday, Time has dissapeared,
Infortunately fears have torn us apart since, but don’t wipe my loving memories !
Hope, i add something good
X.O.X.O
Thanks for all your words of wisdom to understand better the real meaning of real love!
and Yes, sex does open doors in multiple levels,
But not any kind of sex,
Totally agree with Pandora “Depends if your key fits the lock…”, and that only happen when you create love and magic making sex with your soulmate, Confirmed and proved!!
I feel that sex can open doors to perception or it can close them off and cause one to miss out on tremedous beauty the universe has to offer via cosmic energy.
When sex is performed in complete love for the other, not necessarily in love (although it’s more profound when in love) then sex can open doors and allow one to ‘see’ other people. By this I mean that we completely let go our ourselves and our egos and actually become one with the other and thus creating a new entity, even if it only lasts a few minutes. By releasing our ego and false sense of self we ‘see’ others and begin to know what it is like to exist in a state of pure love and bliss which is what our souls strive to live for.
When sex is used for pure pleasure of the flesh and nothing more then our bodies are fulfilled, but a void is left within us that is left yerning to be filled with love of ourselves by us and another as well as a yerning to love another. An opportunity is missed to feel the universal energy of God/Love/Christ Conciousness and we are left drained of vital enery which our bodies steadily produce by innate absorbtion.
Sex can heal as well as destroy and it’s very important to engage with the awareness of it’s magnificent potential.
hi,thank you for this book.love u so much……
First i want you to know that i ever had sex! But i believe that sex happens in mind rather than in body. Most of the time just thinking about my lover makes me wet and have orgasm too! Hey,i am not mentioning masturbation.
Here i want to add something more. Ultimately sex is sacred and divine! perhaps the god himself wants us to practice sex,otherwise he wouldn’t make it too sweet!
I happened to hear about the transmutation of sexual energy. If anyone knows about it please let me know
I want my Christ!
Love
Maryon
SEX is just a physical need of this HUMAN BODY…nothing more.
Once we become more than animals, we will understand.
LOVE to everyone!
XXX
Paulo, there is a book called “The Magdalen Manuscript” and it is about the Alchemies of Horus and the Sex magic of Isis, and how Jesus and Mary Magdalen practised
Sex Magic to charge the Ka body (an Egyptian term for the etheric double, or energetic body that surrounds the physical) into deeper states of consciousness. This practice of sex and spiritual realisation, was suppressed by the Church. Here is another piece I found on the subject:
The Sexual Magic of Isis has to do with the innate ability of the feminine being to utilize magnetic energies to open deeper levels of consciousness through the act of surrendering to the sexual energies and pathways that are opened.
When a woman is deeply loved and appreciated, something lets go at the deepest levels of herself, and at the moment of orgasm there is an uncontrollable shuddering that takes place. If she feels safe and allows this shaking, this quivering, to overtake her, there is a tremendous magnetic vortex that opens, the center of which is in her womb.
Two Initiates engaged in the Sexual Magic of Isis can strengthen themselves and rapidly expand their consciousness through the power of this magnetic field.
In the advanced practices of the Sexual Magic of Isis the male Initiate causes both of his Serpents to rise through the Ka body of the female and the female causes her Two Serpents to rise through the Ka body of the male. The explosive power of this practice is like the energy released by an atomic bomb. The massive tidal waves of magnetics can strengthen the Ka beyond imagination—or destroy it, if not handled properly.
Thank you so much by sharing this! Best Regards, Carmen
Dear Daniela Rose, I search for this book on the internet, but couldn´t find it. Is the title correct “The Magdalen Manuscript” ? Thankful for your help. BR, Carmen Silverpil, Sweden
sounds interetsing !! any teachers on this ? i can be a good student of subjects i like !!
Wow !!! Thats truely amazing but how many people really experience that
I think that sex changes your perception. it does not neccessary open doors. The process can be more of a holding effect. It can open the doors of shear resonance. If your spirit at that resonates well with your partner then it open doors perception. if the resonance doesn’t occur it can
1. become mechanical act
2, a means by which one partner entraps the other with strong emotions regenerated by sex.
3. a very confusing disturbing experience even though it can feel quite superficial process.
analysis of the event like analysis any event opens the doors of perception.
Krishna
Our reality is compesed of three-dimensional aspects namely the heart,mind, and soul. If you are living or focusing your energies in the first level or dimension of reality (emotion, biological reaction, survival),then sex is everything.Nonetheless, as you progress and integrate the other dimmensions of reality you transcend sex and are able to develop other means of percpetions that is necessary to perceive reality in a three-dimensional way. This upper stage integrates our animal, human , and spiritual aspects of existence.
yes sex .. is a beautiful source of giving and receiving each other’s emotions. Only through sexual experience we can touch eachother’s soul.it is a blissfull meditation between man & woman.
Sex opens different perceptions depending upon context. With whom? Where? When? intention? State of mind during the act? The level of desire one has reached in his lifetime at the moment of consummation?and etc. etc.
There is no question for me that sex opens a lot of doors and questions that need answers, as it permeates every level of my consciousness as well as my subconscious.I have experienced sex on many different levels from the basest to the ethereal.
All my previous perceptions were shattered one day, even the ethereal ones. My soulmate sex, a soulmate reunion sex.
Depends if your key fits the lock…
I have to disagree, I think that the act of Sex, or what drives us to the act, clouds our perceptions and closes the door on what is almost ‘real’…..
We get lost in feelings of infactuation, lust, desire, need and want… The act of sex is just the act, but at times we can make more, or less, of a situation when it comes to matters of fulfilling our own egocentric desires. Because we are animals nontheless it is sometimes hard for us to rationalize our animal insticts. Be it fear, anger, servival and of course sex. Sex being just a word given to describe the act of pent up energy needing to be released. Not all acts of sex result in pregnacy, so I cannot fully buy into the idea that sex is soly for the purpose of procreation. Having said all this, I feel that when the time comes within each individual person to release their energy, they can sometimes make decisions hastfully and almost dismiss their better judgement inorder to fulfill their need. Rapes, extra marital affairs, abuse of minors, are all things people would perhaps normally be able to rationalize as bad choices, yet the need to satisify their personal energy overrides their perception in other everyday life situations.
In modern day living, over the past 100 years, sex has been romantized, it has evolved into something far more distant then what it start off being. Sex is now about personal expression, feeling connected, often times associated with love, but I would argue with anyone who thinks that sex does not exist outside of these definitions. Because they do. Go to any bar on a Friday night after last call, and I would bet my life any acts of sex resulting at that hour has nothing to do with finding yourself for with feelings of love.
Hey, don’t get me wrong, I am in a loving, committed relationship, of which I enjoy sexual relations, but those relations have nothing to do with finding myself, express my love or feeling loved; I do all that outside the bedroom, the fact that I share a bed with this person is just very convenient, and that fact that I love him is a bonus….
because of what you say i think that you have never realy experienced what we talk about
i would not call it sex anymore
more like making love
and jes, its a transmision, u can get very connected to the soul of other person
and i must say from my own experience, that few times i get quite farder than with a meditation
to pure myself and purely connected with another person*
Well written Dorothy, its a good translation of your heart into words..
This act may not termed as touching the soul or meditation. But yes, it differs from person to person how it takes the act..
perception is not prerequisite for sex i mean i myself is involved in it wid my partner but we don share we rather talk about it, we just enjoy it n thats not coz of perception but coz we have learned to discover each other’s desires ,its all about making ur love work n nothin else!
I think the perceptions are different. Boys always looking for sex, but girls, prefer love. boys would have sex with anyone they like, but girls would have sex with someone they love. There only 2 general perceptions of sex, pure lust, and pure love.
Hi,
I wonder if love is a prequisite for sex, especially for women. WE women find it difficult to attend to our sexual urges without relatively being in love with someone or the hope to go uphill from there. Is it innate or a form of conditioning? also, we have free flowing sex everywhere…sex chats with starngers for instance…i wonder how people derive pleasure out of it because it leaves me extremely cold. the more i grow older and i am just 23, the more i find it difficult to feel aroused.
sana, i m really amazed tht there are other persons who can think like me in this age..I am a male, n even then I cant think of deriving pleasure without having a connection with the other’s soul..n i think its not the matter of boy or girl, its the matter of approach irrespctive of a male or a female..
Sex By it self is a process of regeneration of the species
But it is also the main tool for the evolution of the being
In Human Being this tool can be used to conserve energy and redirect, channelize it to the centers of the body and elevate your being.
Can achieve rare insight telepathic senses, and over the period rare achievements as able to manifest what you say
Do not ab-use it
All I know is that if you don’t have it men start drinking and women start putting on weight.
I have to admit I don’t really understand the question. Does sex open the doors of perception? The perception of what? I know that when I have sex I can see all of my weaknesses and strengths as a person. There’s just something about being naked and touching a man that just makes me see myself completely, as a whole. It’s so primal, it’s so human, it’s just a moment of truth. Sex is a moment of truth, if you let it be. You are naked emotionally and physically, EVERYTHING is out there. And you are sharing that moment with your partner. When I am having sex pleasure is so apparent. In my day to day life I may be able to hide pleasure from myself (and unfortunately I tend to do that), the pleasure that comes from rich food, a good conversation, whatever. But when I’m having sex pleasure is there and you can’t ignore it.
I don’t think I’ve answered the question, but to write this I used my brain and it needed a workout.
cheers
wonderful comment Carolina. where are you from?
will you be my friend?
regards
arun, Mumbai
India
I think it lifts us to a higher place yes.. but it depends on who you are with and if that person is as strongly connected to you and your surroundings. Otherwise its just pleasure..
when we are having sex with someone, we share so much energy,sex with someone we admire and feel conected has a great life power ,our aura becomes one,we understand each other without speaking ,just looking in each other eyes we share telepathic ideas, we get in some kind of transe,it opens our perception,if you pay atention you can notice many things happening, a natural mystic in the air, if you listen carefully you will hear : )
so well said. I am into a lot of spiritual reading. may be we should chat one day.
Arun
Mumbai, India
Sigmund freud states,’we are our desires’.
What we want, wantedly or unwantedly, we ought to become that. Once we are what we want, perception comes into action.
What is love to one, can be sex to other, and nothing for someone else.
Once sex starts connnecting to your soul, it’s no more an art, it’s an act of making love. It can teach you how to see yourself.
Ayn Rand says, ‘you can be judged by the kind of girl you want to sleep with’.
Please read my blog : deadsnowflake.wordpress.com
I would love to have your comments..
Thanks for all your books, they are above judgemnts.
love,
karan
i liked ur reply a lot
Namaste–Gratias Paulo Cuehlo for your Divine Presence in this troubled world. “love is a many spendored thing” & sex begins in the mind and is a state of same to moi. Love reigns in my heart of hearts, over & above all else. Sex conquers the flesh, may connect souls, may make spirits soar, may raise your “kundalini”, open your chakras, or anything else one can imagine.
yours sincerely, Marielena
seeking DNA carrier !
When I read that particular part about sex and the 5 senses …I finally found myself…that is what Sex is for me…the 5 senses..and it does open up a whole new perception about the person you are practicing sex with…i mean…when a cold personality turns into the most passionate….when the boldest become so fragile…It sure does let us see things we never noticed…things we like…and things we dont…and not to forget how thse senses gather as much memories of the moment as no one could do…I guess i am facinated by the fact as well as the description of it in the book….Paulo I love you coz you do carry realistic human emotions that touches every aspect in our lives…unlike other authers that might get carried away with what they might imagine or dream of being true….Thanks for being the writer you already are….
Sex is sex. It encompasses everything that everyone has said so far. It begets different opinions, and it is all of them.
For me, sex is either a spiritual communion with your loved one, the one which opens a door to a completely different sensation and can be only achieved with a strong essence of love from both parties, OR it is the ecstasy that is accompanied by the adrenaline rush of fulfilling one’s lust or desire for sex.
For mankind, sex is mere reproduction, with or without our acknowledgment.
yes i do agree with you Wei Liang… coz my BF cheated on me after my first sex of life.. he left me for him that was sex only.. may for him it was what u have stated ….
the adrenaline rush of fulfilling one’s lust or desire for sex.
I think for him it was lust only
where as i was in love…
:(
Sex and perception go hand in hand. My own experience of it is that sex is a journey that can take us to the same destination but can be arrived at via different routes.
The cautious driver will take the same route and therefore his/her overall perception to everything is curtailed unwittingly.
On the other hand the experienced risk taker will follow untold and unknown roads to get there. His/Hers is always the better route. At the worst he can always take the safe journey but invariably he will follow his/her instincts and guide his/her partner through a myriad of emotions. His/her perception of sex, life, etc.. will therefore be influenced by sexual experiences.
the supernatural grace of sex is that it is a new experience and journey in every time. some one said that sex is a journey to the lost paradise, but you take just outside look on it. so, to think and search for a more lasting pleasure.
Yes I definatly think so. After I had sex I have such feeling as a meditation being in a present moment quiete peaceful and at the same time full of energy.
Yes, absolutely… we can loose ourselves in our senses and cross the reality into a different dimension. When you are there let your imagination carry you and you will discover many things. Our body chemistry does the work for Us. However, it does not happen with everyone that we have sex with… It has to be someone that ignites your fire and shares the same energy.
Love,
Alexandra
Interesting….. I have a new read.. Sex does open the door of perception. All our senses are experienced, given, and taken in that moment. ¥es we can have sex without any emotion, i know i can, but i choose not too. its too beautiful the giving and receiving. its ying and yang, so much energy is involved. when its at the peak just feel it through, youll wonder how u got there later. And you will want to get there again. Ever walk around in a sexual daze? Its something that should be experienced.
For me it’s very bad experience….
I loved My lover like anything & surrender myself for sex just becoz i love him a lot….in our culture having sex before marriage is unethical.. but i gave him coz he wished so… & immediately after first sex of my life he left me… i convinced him a lot but he started hating me … he got now engaged with other girl from my community only.. i used to thought he love me too & will marry me for sure… but he left me… now i am 26 year girl & lonely having dreams & hoping for his love only which is fact.. so much lonely & alone…sex disturbed my life like anything.. i think for boys its heaven.. But in my mind i got emotionally cling to him & he started hating me…he left me… now all i feel is only regret.. & how stupid i was that i gave everything of mine just under word love & alone 7 still missing him.. ( he treated me so badly):( :( He was my true love first love…now i am craving for piece of mind & my rushes for sex are not stopping inside.. :(
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