You are now known as "the magician of words". Why your debut was at the age of forty? What was the incident that motivated you?
It’s true, it took me almost 40 years for me to become a writer. Before that I always dreamt of becoming a writer, but I never dared to take the necessary steps.
I did the pilgrimage to Santiago in 1986 but met my master in Amsterdam in 1982. He told me things back then that enabled my soul to slowly awaken and it was through a series of rituals that I was able, four years later, to embark on my pilgrimage.
Yet, it was only during my pilgrimage that it became increasingly apparent that I wasn’t happy and I had to do something about it – stop making excuses. I realized that you don’t have jump through a series of complicated hoops to achieve a goal. You can just look at a mountain and get a connection with God, you don’t have to understand the mountain to feel that.
When I first got back from the trip it was an anti-climax. I found it hard to acclimatize to my normal life and I was impatient to change my life immediately. But changes happen when you’re ready. It took a few months to realize that I must solely concentrate on writing a book, rather than trying to fill various roles as I had before. The pilgrimage was to be my subject and as I started I took my first step towards my dream.
Thank you very much for your words Tania :-)
It´s about my occupation among other things.
I have been sick for a while, but that is one of the best things that have ever happend to me *LOL*
Because otherwise I hadn´t never started to educate myself in massage and healing.
But how will you ever know when you are ready?
Even if I go to classes and get diplomas how will I know that I´m ready to help other people?
I know that I have been throw a lot of things that I think have giving me a strenght and understanding of many things. Maybe thats why I had to go throw so much .. that´s my belief anyway ;-)
And now I have to get back for a while to my old job (so I can put food on the table for my kids).
But I am planning for starting my own buisness soon, when I feel strong enough in my body, because this gives me so much in return to help other peolpe in this way.
Love Jessica
I do not know anything about the age of forty because I’m 30 now. But lately I have started to think about what I really want. I have a family, I have a career. But I can’t say I’m always happy. I’m too afraid of everything and I’m too unaware of myself. I have not had problems with achieving something but right now I actually do not know what I want to achieve or who I am. And I am absolutely sane, and usually I’m not depressed (it might be hard to believe that right now).
So I hope it will pass, with a little help. Do I have to wait 10 years for that (until the age of 40)?
I wrote this blog August 26, 2007. It’s funny. What you wrote resonates with me a year after.
I think my life will begin at 40. I think 30 is like 20 where I started “young adulthood” but on the wrong foot. I think 30 is my new adulthood. I think I will not have children of my own. Biologically anyway, I’m not sure if that would be possible by the time God sends His man for me (again that depends because with God all things are possible). I think I will not grow old alone. And that’s a comforting thought. I also think that I will be writing biographies (published or unpublished, I don’t know) but I like the idea of being able to write about people’s lives like creating a portrait with a hint of your own impression.
In the corporate world, I’ll probably always be someone who will manage conflict. I don’t know if that’s a good a thing or if that will make me age faster (ha!). But I’d like to think that it’s a grounding experience everytime I mediate conflict between people.
Lastly, I tried to compose a song today. A song without words. I tried to draw music with the piano keys. To draw an image of what the first few chapters of Thirteen Tales was making me feel. I probably have about 8 measures already in my brain. My hands are urging me to notate them on staff paper but I’m not sure if I have the time. I’m thinking if I am able to buy a keyboard for my MAC, I probably won’t have to notate it manually. But then again, where’s the fun in that.
Now it’s time for a hot cup of coffee and more chapters of my new favorite book.
Good for you Jessica ! ..its hard to go back …try to just go forward …Be free ,be love ,and be you , and like the shampoo add over here says “it doesnt happen over night, but it does happen “….I know its only about hair ~~but I always think of it about my life ..Anything is possible ..Blessings Tania
Para nossa felicidade, você resolceu escrever e isso é maravilhoso.
Beijos,
Mari Raphael.
There must be something about the age of 40 as that is when I made my break. Said to myself. That’s enough, I’ve had living life like a zombie. I’m throwing caution to the wind and I’ve never been happier.
Kathleen xxoo
*LOL* forgive me for laughing, but it´s so funny that you write
exactly what I need to hear today :-)
I´m so miserable today … I feel like I´m being forced back to be someone I don´t want to be :-S
I know I can´t change things over one night, so I have to go back to something I don´t wan´t to for a while.
Meanwhile I´m going to figure out a way to achieve my
dreams and goals.
I have to try, otherwise I´m going to be miserable the
rest of my life.
So thank you for your words today Paulo :-)
Love Jessica
How wonderful to read your answer, this is just what I feel is happening to me, I am in my forties, from Holland but living elsewhere. It was my daughter who made me put my fears aside when she asked me why I was always pretending to be happy and making excuses and saying things I do not really mean. She said she wanted the truth and she is so right, I have played so many roles over the years. I never had the courage to do what I wanted to do and to be who I am. I have started reading your books and feel my soul awakening. This was a couple of weeks ago and since then I have started writing and writing and every day I feel I am a step closer to who I am and giving my daughter the true love she deserves.
Thank you