Prayer of Forgiveness

JUNE 26,2012: ALEPH PAPERBACK IN USA

EM PORTUGUES AQUI: Oração do Perdão
EN ESPANOL AQUI: “Te perdono porque te amo y tu to me amas”
EN FRANÇAIS ICI : Prière du Pardon ( O Aleph)

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Hilal searches for inspiration on the golden walls, the columns, the people coming at this hour of the morning, the flames of the lit candles.

- I forgive the girl I was, not because I want to become a saint but because I do not want to endure this hatred. This tiresome hatred.

This was not what I expected.
- You may not forgive everyone and everything, but forgive me.
- I forgive everything and everyone. I forgive you because I love you and you do not love me. I forgive you because you reject me and I am losing my power.

She closes her eyes and raises her hands towards the ceiling.

- I am liberated from hatred by means of forgiveness and love. I understand that suffering, when it cannot be avoided, helps me to advance towards glory.

Hilal speaks softly but the acoustics of the church are so perfect that everything she says seems to echo throughout the four corners. But my experience tells me that she is channelling the spirit of a child.

The tears I shed, I forgive.
The suffering and disappointments, I forgive.
The betrayals and lies, I forgive.
The slandering and scheming, I forgive.
The hatred and persecution, I forgive.
The punches that were given, I forgive.
The shattered dreams, I forgive.
The dead hopes, I forgive.
The disaffection and jealousy, I forgive.
The indifference and ill will, I forgive.
The injustice in the name of justice, I forgive.
The anger and mistreatment, I forgive.
The neglect and oblivion, I forgive.
The world with all its evil, I forgive.

She lowers her arms, opens her eyes and places her hands on her face.
I move closer to kiss her, but she makes a signal with her hands.
- I have not finished yet.
She closes her eyes and looks up.

Grief and resentment, I replace with understanding and agreement.
Revolt, I replace with music that comes from my violin.
Pain I replace with oblivion.
Revenge, I replace with victory.

I will be able to love above all discontentment.
To give even when I am stripped of everything.
To work happily even when I find myself in the midst of all obstacles.
To dry tears even when I am still crying.
To believe even when I am discredited.

She opens her eyes, puts her hands on my head and says with an authority that comes from above:

- Thy will be done. Thy will be done.

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from my new book ALEPH, the real story behind my Trans-Siberian trip in 2006.

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Comments

  1. " HALF TRUTH IS A WHOLE LIE " says:

    DEAR PAUL,
    I REQUEST THE PEOPLE TO LET GO THE “VENOM” THEY ARE CARRYING FOR OTHERS (ULTIMATELY THEY THEMSELVES ARE GOING TO BE VICTIM OF IT NOT THE PERSON THEY WISH TO BE ) . USUALLY IT DOES NOT HAVE ANY GROUND REALITY , HAS BEEN INCULCATED IN THEIR BRAINS BY PEOPLE HAVING THEIR PERSONAL VESTED INTERESTS OR TO SATISFY THEIR FALSE EGO . ONLY TIME WILL SHOW THEM THEIR UGLY FACES . & MOREOVER
    THEY FORGET ” HALF TRUTH IS A WHOLE LIE ” . ONE DAY TRUTH WILL GET REVEALED OF ITS OWN .

    OFTEN I ASK MYSELF ….ANY TIME IN MY LIFE HAVE I DONE SOMETHING FOR WHICH I CAN NOT FORGIVE MYSELF ? I ALWAYS GET AN ANSWER ” NO ” . ……THAT’S WHY I FIND MYSELF AT PEACE MOVING AHEAD …. FULL OF JOY …. ENJOYING COMPANY OF FRIENDS , MY KIDS , MY FELLOW WORKERS, NEW PEOPLE , & WHEN EVER REQUIRED MY OWN COMPANY …..LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL …..ONCE YOU START LIVING IN HARMONY WITH EXISTENCE…. N M ENJOYING EVERY BIT OF IT ….. EVERY MOMENT IS A CELEBRATION FOR ME ….. I AM BIT SELFISH IN THIS CONNECTION ….. I FIND MYSELF CONTENDED ….. HAPPY ….. AT PEACE ……. LIVING IN THIS MOMENT ….. SO DON’T BOTHER MUCH BOUT WAT OTHERS THINK ABOUT ME …….
    OF COURSE FORGIVING OWN SELF & OTHERS IS THE KEY TO THIS PEACEFUL LIFE …….
    CELEBRATE EACH & EVERY MOMENT OF LIFE ….. AS IT IS THE ONLY GIFT EXCLUSIVELY FOR YOU …… ENJOY ………..