Prayer of Forgiveness

JUNE 26,2012: ALEPH PAPERBACK IN USA

EM PORTUGUES AQUI: Oração do Perdão
EN ESPANOL AQUI: “Te perdono porque te amo y tu to me amas”
EN FRANÇAIS ICI : Prière du Pardon ( O Aleph)

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Hilal searches for inspiration on the golden walls, the columns, the people coming at this hour of the morning, the flames of the lit candles.

- I forgive the girl I was, not because I want to become a saint but because I do not want to endure this hatred. This tiresome hatred.

This was not what I expected.
- You may not forgive everyone and everything, but forgive me.
- I forgive everything and everyone. I forgive you because I love you and you do not love me. I forgive you because you reject me and I am losing my power.

She closes her eyes and raises her hands towards the ceiling.

- I am liberated from hatred by means of forgiveness and love. I understand that suffering, when it cannot be avoided, helps me to advance towards glory.

Hilal speaks softly but the acoustics of the church are so perfect that everything she says seems to echo throughout the four corners. But my experience tells me that she is channelling the spirit of a child.

The tears I shed, I forgive.
The suffering and disappointments, I forgive.
The betrayals and lies, I forgive.
The slandering and scheming, I forgive.
The hatred and persecution, I forgive.
The punches that were given, I forgive.
The shattered dreams, I forgive.
The dead hopes, I forgive.
The disaffection and jealousy, I forgive.
The indifference and ill will, I forgive.
The injustice in the name of justice, I forgive.
The anger and mistreatment, I forgive.
The neglect and oblivion, I forgive.
The world with all its evil, I forgive.

She lowers her arms, opens her eyes and places her hands on her face.
I move closer to kiss her, but she makes a signal with her hands.
- I have not finished yet.
She closes her eyes and looks up.

Grief and resentment, I replace with understanding and agreement.
Revolt, I replace with music that comes from my violin.
Pain I replace with oblivion.
Revenge, I replace with victory.

I will be able to love above all discontentment.
To give even when I am stripped of everything.
To work happily even when I find myself in the midst of all obstacles.
To dry tears even when I am still crying.
To believe even when I am discredited.

She opens her eyes, puts her hands on my head and says with an authority that comes from above:

- Thy will be done. Thy will be done.

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from my new book ALEPH, the real story behind my Trans-Siberian trip in 2006.

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Comments

  1. ALWIDA DOST ........ FORGIVE & FORGET ....... says:

    I know i’m not a perfect friend,
    You’re broken heart, i’ve tried to mend.
    Instead i made you hurt and cry,
    Maybe i should say goodbye.
    Would it be better for me to go?,
    I asked you, and you said “No”.
    Why say no when i hurt you so bad,
    Deep in my heart,
    I’ll always know,
    I’ll love you always,
    Even if i go!
    FORGIVE……..
    & FORGET ………
    I miss you ……..

  2. On of ur readers.. says:

    Paulo,

    Reading your book “Aleph” , i had only one name in my mind going through out..

    and, as my frequencies reach that person , with that name, whom once i loved , my first love, called me over the phone in the next few hours.. from a distant country..

    My life after him is never like what it was before him.. all the pain..and all the suffering.. it would have been even worse if i couldnt find my true love.. but thats not a excuse..

    Since two years, I have been waiting for this person to ask me for forgiveness for what he did to me.. and with the same hope i received every call of him since that day , when i revealed his mistake in front of his lover..

    but never i got what i needed.. even today when he called.. he only calls me once in every six months.. says that he wanted to know if im ok.. but i know, its only to check if im not angry with him anymore..

    finally i myself got freed from this anger of mine telling the prayer of forgiveness… which i learned from your book..

    The tears I shed, I forgive.
    The suffering and disappointments, I forgive.
    The betrayals and lies, I forgive.
    The slandering and scheming, I forgive.
    The hatred and persecution, I forgive.
    The punches that were given, I forgive.
    The shattered dreams, I forgive.
    The dead hopes, I forgive.
    The disaffection and jealousy, I forgive.
    The indifference and ill will, I forgive.
    The injustice in the name of justice, I forgive.
    The anger and mistreatment, I forgive.
    The neglect and oblivion, I forgive.
    The world with all its evil, I forgive.

    and I said him Good Bye..

    Thanks for the book, which came into my hands when i needed the most…

    Thank you..

  3. Florence Haridan says:

    As usual, God brings me the exact thing I need to hear at the exact right moment. It is 3:57 am and I cannot sleep. Moments ago I was over whelmed, fearful and almost paralyzed with shame. Now I am not.

    As I read this I could feel my heart sighing in relief. I could feel it saying yes, there is truth her for me too. I forgive, myself, others, the situation, the lessons, the fears…I accept forgiveness and give it openly knowing it will bring freedom, peace, LOVE.

    May God bless all who are in this space of seeking HIS will, I am honored to be among you.

  4. Linda Valles says:

    Speechless ,that is so beautiful!

  5. Meryem says:

    whenever I finish one of your books, I feel that my life has changed; it always touchs both my mind and heart. thanks to you sir I learnt how to live, how to love, I learnt that that being strong does not mean ignore our pain, in the contrary I am living with it, I am facing it, I do not win all the time but I feel free, I can cry and smile at the same time, I can share the love I have with the world, I believe now that I should love for the love itself … thanks to you I learnt how to go on and keep moving no matter how anxious I am, no matter how much pain I might feel, I am proud of you and of myself because I know you! and I know that you are a good, very good person! so keep inspiring us! helps us to get what we lost, to reconnect with God, with the energy of the world… I said to much XD ; THANK YOU for being there for us <3

  6. esraa fawzy says:

    i finished reading alef two hours ago is that realy story paulo ؟؟؟‎ ‎ will you read and answer me ؟؟؟‎ ‎ did you kill hilal in past ؟‎ what does it mean

  7. Danielle says:

    A beautiful lesson you have given me through this book………..Thank you from all my lives.

  8. Linda Valles says:

    Bellissima il scritto. Beautiful!

  9. Shine says:

    Hi Paulo,
    I actually loved your book. Its very good. Thanks for writing it :)

    1. Siyanda Magaya says:

      Dear Paulo
      Thank you for the food for thought, I’m one of your Biggest fan in South Africa.
      You seem to say the right things at the right time when I need it the most.
      Again thank you.
      Regards Siyanda

  10. Yasmin says:

    Cant wait to put my hands on this book!

  11. Jonetxu says:

    I thought she was blac haired. Not blond as I have seen in the picture above.
    I wish I was able of forgiving all that, or saying this pray and really mean it. But I feel I can’t do it.

  12. Sue Ellen Brazell says:

    Wonderful. I always look forward to your posts. I would like email as well so I can forward to friends.

  13. Lucretia says:

    Thank you Mr. Coelho!
    This is exactly what I need right now.
    *Blessings*

  14. Sebastian says:

    Dear Mr. Coelho,

    would you mind if I use some of this in my goodbye-letter, sometime in the future?

    Sincerely
    Sebastian

  15. Ofelia says:

    “Hágase tu voluntad”

  16. luzmariposa says:

    Perdon…es reconciliar..entregar el corazon..a quien amamos y en quien creemos..dejando atras..lo que nos ha herido..
    Perdon..
    Perdonar es un acto de amor..
    Cuando perdonamos nos purificamos,
    En una comunion de entrega , hacia el otro y nosotros mismos
    No es facil perdonar,mas aun,cuando tenemos que perdonarnos a nosotros mismos.
    Significa aceptar el error cometido,sacar a la superficie el dolor escondido
    Aceptar que podemos equivocarnos y hacer daño a otros y a nosotros mismos.
    Cuando perdonamos o nos perdonan, nos estan bendiciendo
    besos Clary

  17. ruta says:

    love the book…

  18. Milan moghe says:

    HILAL WILL KEEP ON INCARNATING TO FREE PAULOS.
    Hilal . Gracias . Paulo Is n will be yours always…. You are a wonderful person … But hilal go back…. dont turn back your life awaits for you . waiting for you … thomas…

  19. Mandira Rastogi says:

    I wana correct you A poor farmer….. i feel you meant to say Hilal in place of Bilal…. if I m not wrong ?
    The journey is over …. Both Paulo & Hilal have performed the Ritual …. Have traversed through The Devine Aleph have experienced The Aleph .. Now its time
    Hilal also needs to go . The journey was to unladen the burden of sins weighing on Paulos soul by the hands of Hilal particularly .Why Hilal ? as The sins were committed by Paulo of betraying Hilal in his past incarnation . The journey had a sacred purpose was to perform the ritual for both Paulo & Hilal as well …..ritual of being Forgiven & Forgiving …..there by purifying their respective souls so that they could Love & Live with guilt free pure hearts with the people they live in this incarnation….

    Aleph says -
    you are prisoner of your past and so m I ,
    if I loved you in one life ,
    i will continue to love you for ever
    i have have no heart , no body , no soul, nothing ! All i have is Love .
    You think i exist but thats just an optical illussion .
    What you are seeing is Love in its Purest state , yearning to reveal itself , but there is no time or space where it can do that …….

    Hilal & Paulo your Souls will remain the same Love shall always remain the same only incarnations will change … Bodies will change … In every incarnation Hilal will come to relieve Paulo …… To Forgive & being Forgiven …. A ritual of purification of Souls ….

    Ooh…. Paulo…. I find that if you see it with eyes of your soul all the above is true and happens in life you can feel it …. Hilals incarnate as Gods Blessings to free Paulos…….

    Why sometimes Fictions look to be so real and close to Life …. BeCause it must be definately based on some ones real experience … Some Paulos trans siberian journey with Hilal….

  20. A poor farmer says:

    …….. It seems my Trans Siberian journey is over and my Bilal has forgiven my Sins of my past incarnations . I am quite relaxed . My mind is at peace , fresh guiltless breath in my heart , re energised full of Joy and Love …..going back to my home ….. With so many Sweet Memories of the Trip and the ALEPH …. With a promise to Bilal & a promise from Bilal to Forgive and Forget each other….

  21. MITAK says:

    “A LOVE THAT ASKS FOR NOTHING AND GIVES NOTHING IN RETURN
    IT IS SIMPLY THERE . I WILL BE NEVER YOURS & YOU WILL BE NEVER MINE
    NEVER THE LESS I CAN HONESTLY SAY YOU I LOVE YOU.”

    I dont want to add any any thing to above as this itself is Divine and complete in itself……..FOR MY SOUL MATE ……

  22. Ruma says:

    Paulo this is my FINAL VERDICT on Love …..is very much in Tune to your thought process …. I now understand why Witch Doctors are meant for ? …. Ofcourse I may need one if things in my life go in this way …. Thanks Paulo for providing a platform to us though as usual it was not a HAPPY ENDING ….

  23. Ruma says:

    At the end of the day I get confused Why is it such People do not want to Live ? They kill their own Love !!! They supress their own feelings in the name of BIG BIG words like SACRIFICE , BIGGER LOVE , PURE LOVE. They lose the battle which they had WON in the name of BIGGER LOVE . Why do not they realise that Why they Kill their Own selves when everything was still in their controls . Finally when it comes to Romeo Julliet story they say its Tragedic . If you dont wana live in Peace and Love why thrive for it throughout Life . Why you rejected the Opportunity God sent Opportunity to Live more Love more ? Finally sucumbing Your Loves wish too . Any how where ever you be I will always like you to be in Peace and be Happy and shall suggest dont fall into Love it finally gives PAIN only …… Nothing else but PAIN …….

  24. richard robertson says:

    hi Paulo
    For me the Pilgrimage was your first great journey. It re-opened my soul to love which I had denied to myself. It gave me an insight to the devils I have had in my life. Thank you for the insights of this journey. I gave up my dreams, made my life too complicated and transformed my life into a cruel experience. I am now re-starting, like the seed and I am in the process of forgiving myself so I can experience love fully. I ask for help and guidance. The RAM exercises seem to need a guide.
    Hilal’s prayer is for me an affirmation of love and the power of love.

    1. MITAK says:

      Listen to your heart , it will give reply to all your queries . Paulo says

      “LISTEN TO YOUR HEART , IT KNOWS ALL THINGS , BECAUSE IT CAME FROM THE SOUL OF THE WORLD, AND IT WILL ONE DAY RETURN THERE ”

      Your heart can serve as the best guide . Follow your Dreams Transform your Life . with Love xxxxxx

  25. BLISS says:

    “Paulo Sir”
    This prayer is very powerful and effective . It works . I have been practicing on its contents . Its tough , one may not be able to even attain 1% on it , trying itself is enough . One starts getting positive results. In my Aleph i.e in India it is more simple ( may be due to translation ) . Forgiving your ownself is a sort of nourishment you provide to your own soul. Its prayer of “Humanity” the Biggest Religion on the Globe .Paulo you are a Magician . Your words are shere Magic, work wonders in readers life . Wishing lots of Love & Peace to you and all your readers ….
    Bliss.

    1. BLISS says:

      Sheer magig i mean to say ….

  26. upendra says:

    beautiful rendition

  27. Neelam says:

    Nice words really, I want to share some golden words from GOD’S last apostle: On the authority of Anas (R.A), who said: I heard the messenger of Allah say:

    Allah the Almighty has said: “O son of Adam, so long as you call upon Me and ask of Me, I shall forgive you for what you have done, and I shall not mind. O son of Adam, were your sins to reach the clouds of the sky and were you then to ask forgiveness of Me, I would forgive you. O son of Adam, were you to come to Me with sins nearly as great as the earth and were you then to face Me, ascribing no partner to Me, I would bring you forgiveness nearly as great as its.”

    Allah’s Apostle said, “Whoever establishes the prayers on the night of Qadr(odd no night of last ten nights of 8th month of Islamic calendar) out of sincere faith and hoping to attain Allah’s rewards (not to show off) then all his past sins will be forgiven.” Narrated Abu Hurayrah (R.A).

    1. sadafsheikh says:

      jazak Allah khair neelum sister
      Allah SWT is the generous and the forgiving

  28. Neelam says:

    On the authority of Anas (R.A), who said: I heard the messenger of Allah say:

    Allah the Almighty has said: “O son of Adam, so long as you call upon Me and ask of Me, I shall forgive you for what you have done, and I shall not mind. O son of Adam, were your sins to reach the clouds of the sky and were you then to ask forgiveness of Me, I would forgive you. O son of Adam, were you to come to Me with sins nearly as great as the earth and were you then to face Me, ascribing no partner to Me, I would bring you forgiveness nearly as great as its.”

    Allah’s Apostle said, “Whoever establishes the prayers on the night of Qadr(odd no night of last ten nights of 8th month of Islamic calendar) out of sincere faith and hoping to attain Allah’s rewards (not to show off) then all his past sins will be forgiven.” Narrated Abu Hurayrah (R.A).

  29. toñi says:

    Ya sabes lo que pienso. Además soy una persona bastante tozuda o cabezona y mis esquemas mentales han echado raíces muy profundas a lo largo de toda mi vida. Quiero decir que me cuesta mucho cambiar de opinión.
    Podemos perdonar, pero no podemos olvidar.
    A veces perdonamos a alguien porque en realidad ya no nos importa (relaciones de pareja o amistades), con la familia pues podemos perdonar pero cuando algo o alguien no es bueno ni positivo para nosotros…lo mejor es alejarlo de nuestra vida y nuestro mundo interior.
    Y luego, a veces tenemos que tomar una actitud de “guerrero de la luz” como tú dices, porque nos intentan hacer daño con lo más valioso de nosotros (nuestros hijos por ejemplo) entonces no hay perdón, hay que defenderse y luchar para proteger lo que más amamos ¿comprendes?.
    Entiendo que a veces no publicas algunos mensajes en el blog, yo también lo haría. Hay cosas que no deben ser publicadas porque pueden crear opiniones dispares. Pero en referencia al tema de mi hija…no hay perdón.
    Muchas gracias por los ánimos Empié, tienes razón necesito descansar…llevo varios días durmiendo mal porque no deje de pensar y pensar para encontrar soluciones a algunos asuntillos de mi vida. Hoy he pintado el pasillo que da a las habitaciones y los lavabos, en mi casa…seguro que está noche duermo mejor (por el cansancio claro!). Bueno pues eso, lo que digo…podemos perdonar pero no podemos olvidar, nuestros recuerdos forman parte de nosotros.
    Un abrazo muy fuerte,
    Toñi.

  30. Claire says:

    Thank you that was just so beautiful, freeing and refreshing xx

  31. Claire says:

    Thank you :-) That was just so beautiful, refreshing and freeing xx

  32. Saurabh Kant Goel says:

    Please come to India once!!!

  33. Som Chai says:

    L’Amour est plus qu’un mot. C’est le sens de la vie.

  34. Psalmbody says:

    …and Amen.

  35. JOELLE says:

    La vie est faite de trop de sacrifices pour certains ,il est dur de pardonner quand on a tant souffert du mépris et du manque d’affections des parents. On ne sait pas comment donner aux autres et on n’est prêt à tout faire pour se faire aimer . On en demande beaucoup . Mais est-ce nécessaire car vous n’en n’avez jamais assez . Les cicatrices restent comme une trace indélébile et vous n’arrivez pas à oublier .Etes vous fait pour tout supporter ,être l’esclave des autres . Il faut savoir accepter cela des deux côtés et cela s’appelle le masochisme . Es-t on fait pour vivre un amour comme Roméo et Juliette . Il y a des concessions à faire mais il y a des limites à supporter . L’amour a des limites et passe par le respect del’autre . Que faut-il faire dans ce cas là : se plier et vivre dans l’ombre de l’autre . Ceci est valable pour certains mais le voyage s’il doit être long, oblige le duo à ne pas courber l’échine devant l’un ou l’autre . L’amour est pardonnable à condition de répondre aux besoins de l’autre . J’en sais quelque chose, je commence à me réveiller d’un profond sommeil qui m’a poussé à vivre trop d’années avec une personne qui ne m’a rien offert en plus . J’ai fait de mon mieux mais il est difficile de savoir aimé quand on ne s”est jamais senti que de trop au sein de sa famille . Il y a des choses qu’on pardonne sans jamais oublier . Parfois il est trop tard pour le faire car on a trop souffert du manque d’amour d’un père ou d’une mère . Chacun est différent ,on a pas les mêmes besoins pour les sentiments les uns et les autres , ceci est dû au passé que vous avez vécu autrefois . Mais je comprends ce besoin de quête qui vous donne une raison de vivre . Merci Paulo . L’Aleph est un très beau livre à feuilleter et à tourner de page en page quelquefois .

  36. Annie says:

    Those who forgive are those
    who are not afraid of change
    It’s not an easy task,
    and God it hurts and sucks..

    but without forgiveness you are covered in chains
    and is it wise at your age
    to stay in your cage?

    If you forgive you certainly leave something behind
    but what forgiveness gives you… well
    go and find

    Love and Gratitude
    Annie

    1. luzmariposa says:

      perdonar es igual a amar..dejando atras lo que nos hirio..
      Perdonar con el corazon..es volver a creer..dar y darnos otra oportunidad..
      mucha luz..Annie

  37. Cecily says:

    If your inspiration comes from above, and you recognized Jesus as your savior then it will gain souls for the powerful God and you will have eternal life.

  38. Secillamente un grandioso libro en la que te transportas através de la hermosa historia.

  39. nurieen says:

    Beautiful. Thanks.

  40. David Garcia says:

    Hi, I tried to translate the work to Filipino.

    Naghahanap si Hilal ng inspirasyon sa mga ginintuang pader, mga haligi, mga taong paparating sa ganitong kaaga, at sa mga apoy ng kandila.

    – Pinapatawad ko kung sino ako sa nakaraan, hindi dahil nais kong maging santo kundi dahil hindi ko gustong tiisin ang ganitong poot. Itong nakakapagal na poot.

    Hindi ito ang aking hinintay.
    – Hindi mo maaaring mapatawad ang lahat ng tao at lahat ng bagay, pero patawarin mo ako.
    – Pinapatawad ko ang anuman at sinuman. Pinapatawad kita sapagkat mahal kita at di mo ko mahal. Pinapatawad kita dahil itinatakwil mo ako at ako ay nawawalan ng lakas.

    Isinasara niya ang kanyang mga mata at iniaangat ang kanyang mga kamay.

    – Ako ay malaya mula sa poot sa pamamagitan ng kapatawaran at pag-ibig. Napagtatanto ko na ang pagdurusa, kapag ito ay hindi maiwasan, ay tumutulong sa akin para sa pagtahak tungo sa kadakilaan.

    Malumanay na nagsasalita si Hilal ngunit ang pagkagawa ng parokya ay napakatama para sa tunog ng lahat ng kanyang sinasabi; ang tunog ay tila umaalingawngaw sa lahat ng sulok. Subalit itinuturo ng karanasan na siya ay nagpapadaloy ng diwa ng isang musmos.

    Ang iniluha ko, pinapatawad ko.
    Ang pagdurusa at pagkabigo, pinapatawad ko.
    Ang pagtataksil at kasinungalingan, pinapatawad ko.
    Ang paninira at pagpaplano ng masama, pinapatawad ko.
    Ang poot at pag-uusig, pinapatawad ko.
    Ang suntok na ibinigay, pinapatawad ko.
    Ang nadurog na pangarap, pinapatawad ko.
    Ang pag-asang namatay, pinapatawad ko.
    Ang kawalang-kasiyahan at pagseselos, pinapatawad ko.
    Ang kawalang-malasakit at masamang nais, pinapatawad ko.
    Ang kalokohang ginawa sa pangalan ng hustisya, pinapatawad ko.
    Ang galit at pagmamaltrato, pinapatawad ko.
    Ang pagpapabaya at pagkalimot, pinapatawad ko.
    Ang mundo at ang lahat ng masama nito, pinapatawad ko.

    Ibinababa niya ang kanyang mga bisig, binubuksan ang kanyang mga mata at binabalot ng kanyang mga kamay ang kanyang mukha. Ako ay lumalapit upang siya ay hagkan, ngunit siya ay sumesenyas.
    - Hindi pa ako tapos.
    Isinasara niya ang kanyang mga mata at iniaangat ang kanyang mukha tungong langit.

    Poot at pagsisisi, pinapalitan ko ng pang-unawa at pagsang-ayon.
    Rebelyon, pinapalitan ko ng musikang galing sa aking violin.
    Sakit, pinapalitan ko ng limot.
    Ganti, pinapalitan ko ng tagumpay.

    Magkakalakas ako upang magmahal kahit na may pagkayamot.
    Magbibigay kahit na kinuha ang lahat sa akin.
    Magpapakagiliw na magtrabaho sa harap ng mga balakid.
    Magpupunas ng luha habang ako’y tumataghoy.
    Mananalig sa kabila kawalan ng tiwala sa aking sarili.

    Iminumulat niya ang kanyang mga mata, ipinapatong ang kanyang mga palad sa aking ulo, at sinasabi nang may basbas na galing sa taas:

    – Mangyari nawa. Mangyari nawa.

    1. gellie says:

      nice translation. ayos po :)

    2. bb says:

      wow,mas feel pg tagalog,,,ayos>>> :)

  41. Khushey says:

    It is hard to forgive yourself when despite all the understanding, you will not stop sinning.
    And maybe not forgiving is the right thing to do. Hints the bit of piety left in your decaying soul.

  42. Khushey says:

    But it is HARD for me. To not consume myself in hatred. When I have such clear vision of sins and I understand so well the consequences. Yet, I wont stop myself and remorse, conscience, these traitors will only come AFTER i do things I am not allowed to.
    And I dont want to ask Allah for forgiveness cuz I have done so before, been forgiven, and YET i keep doing the same things.
    I mean, I have dreams to conquer the universe but petty things like covering my head leave me confused. And wayward.
    Jihad bil nafs… is TOUGH.

  43. Danica says:

    hi mr.paolo,
    thanks for sharing to us your God given talent.
    i would want to meet you oneday.
    i love the alchemist and the fifth mountain it touched my soul and made me realized that i should be thankful for everything.
    thank you so much..

  44. angie says:

    the thoughts that circulate & somehow find themselves perfectly placed as external words, there is nothing pretentious or fake, no manipulation involved, merely an opportunity for the receiver to open their minds if they so wish .. you radiate a sense of knowing,, calmness & peace and serve as a reminder that i too have that within me despite any challenges that need to be faced – even chaos serves a purpose ..

  45. Arto Hutto says:

    In Swedish:

    Bön om förlåtelse (Alef)

    Hilal söker efter inspiration från de gyllene väggarna, från kolonnerna, från personerna som kommer i denna stund på morgonen, i de tända stearinljusens lågor.

    - Jag förlåter flickan jag var, inte för att jag vill bli ett helgon, men eftersom jag inte vill uthärda detta hat. Detta tröttsamt hat.

    Det här var inte vad jag förväntade mig.
    - Du får inte förlåta allt och alla, men förlåt mig.
    - Jag förlåter allt och alla. Jag förlåter dig för att jag älskar dig och du älskar inte mig. Jag förlåter dig för att du avvisar mig och jag förlorar min makt.

    Hon sluter ögonen och höjer händerna mot taket.

    - Jag är befriad från hat genom förlåtelse och kärlek. Jag förstår att lidande, när det inte kan undvikas, hjälper mig att närma mig frälsning.
    Hilal talar mjukt men akustiken i kyrkan är så perfekt att allt hon säger verkar eka runt i alla de fyra hörnen. Men min erfarenhet säger mig att hon kanaliserar anden av ett barn.

    Tårarna jag utgjutit, förlåter jag.
    Lidandet och besvikelserna, förlåter jag.
    Sveken och lögnerna, förlåter jag.
    Förtalet och beräknandet, förlåter jag.
    Hatet och förföljelserna, förlåter jag.
    Slagen som utdelades, förlåter jag.
    De krossade drömmarna, förlåter jag.
    De döda förhoppningarna, förlåter jag.
    Missnöjet och avundsjukan, förlåter jag.
    Likgiltigheten och illviljan, förlåter jag.
    Orättvisan i rättvisans namn, förlåter jag.
    Vreden och övergreppen, förlåter jag.
    Försummelserna och glömskan, förlåter jag.
    Världen med alla dess ondska, förlåter jag.

    Hon sänker sina armar, öppnar ögonen och placerar händerna över sitt ansikte.

    Jag flyttar mig närmare för att kyssa henne, men hon gör en gest med händerna.
    - Jag är inte klar än.
    Hon sluter ögonen och tittar upp.

    Sorg och bitterhet, byter jag ut mot förståelse och samförstånd.
    Revolt, byter jag ut mot musiken som kommer från min fiol.
    Smärta ersätter jag med glömska.
    Hämnd, byter jag ut mot seger.

    Jag kommer att kunna älska över allt missnöje.
    Att ge även när jag berövats allt.
    Att arbeta glatt även när jag befinner mig mitt i alla hinder.
    Att torka tårarna även när jag fortfarande gråter.
    Att tro även när jag är misskrediterad.

    Hon öppnar ögonen, lägger sina händer på mitt huvud och säger med ett bemyndigande som kommer från ovan:

    - Ske din vilja. Ske din vilja.
    ______________________
    Från min nya bok ALEF, den verkliga historien bakom min Transsibiriska resa 2006.

    Paulo Coelho på svenska: http://www.facebook.com/PauloCoelhoSverige
    Översättning: oLaVie (kommentera gärna)

  46. nasim shafiei says:

    hi
    you juged this girl!
    these days,eyes says nothing.
    I am thinking,who has juged me?
    good luck

  47. faheem says:

    whenever i read any of ur book i become closer to myself..start understanding and analyse myself…there is some mysterious force in your words Paulo. I have started translating THE ALCHEMIST in SINDHI langugae months ago..GOD will helo me to complete it.

  48. K.Aakriti Mason says:

    Dear Mr. Coelho,

    Your book Aleph was truly one the most important books I have ever read. I have a learning disability and concentrating is painstakingly hard for me. Yet, I was gravitated towards you book and finished it in less than few days. Loved reading this book and become deeply connected to the ALEPH. However, I feel as thou the story is not finished and will be waiting patiently for the final chapters to be reveled. My favorite part of the book, is your relationship with YAO. Here is my question, how can we meet a shaman or become our greatest purpose in life? I am ready to find the answers from within, but unsure of where to begin. Please help :)

    Wish you all the peace and happiness!!!
    Namaste,
    K.Aakriti

  49. Lyl says:

    Allow me to write this here because I have to write it somewhere,I cannot write it on fb and I got to let it out somehow,somewhere and NOW!!!
    I hate what my dad is becoming!A bloody coward,liar with no moral values!And they are saying my mom is crazy…at least my mom never let her true friends behind!I’m SO disappointed with my dad.Since he is with that woman which I introduced him to,he left his friends behind confounding accountances and true friends,he doesn’t even take his responsabilities by telling them goodbye or else,he doesn’t answer phone.He allienates himself from everyone and everything and starts doing it with my brother and me…she controls him totally,but it’s easy to say it’s all her fault,it’s him who is a total looser.This is not love,love does not emprison.I hope he’s being himself,but it would mean that he has pretended all his life to be someone he was not and that his qualities of heart don’t exist.He used people then?wow great exemple as a dad!I know my psy tells me that I’m not his mom and that I don’t have to feel guilty because it’s heavy to carry,knowing that it’s me who introduced them..but I was the first happy for them to get married and all,but I also know her bad sides and I know she is possessive due to her lack of confidence and my dad being stupid and weak,it’s like she does what she wants and has the power over his decision…I don’t trust her and hate starts to grow in me towards them both and I know she’s gonna break his heart for sure,not now but in a while and he’s gonna be on his own..but yes I know,I’m not his mother..I have to let him be an idiot and watch him going slowly more and more away from my brother,me,my son…:(( sometimes wanting to make two people happy,having the best intentions can lead to forcing destiny.This is how I feel.I shouldn’t have never introduced them.I regret :( my dad is not the one I used to know..everybody used to know..and this has nothing grand and of love,this has something black hidden,growing like the beast..this has nothing natural.I hope time will help,not separate.Sorry for this post,thanks for letting me share it here.Not time for forgiveness yet or maybe to forgive myself for forcing destiny..trying to stop feeling guilty..trying…

    You meet new and shinny souls and others slowly go away..life is strange..but you cannot replace a dad,not a teacher,not a friend,not a boss..I know they can be even more than that sometimes,but my dad as stupid as he is,stays my dad :(

  50. Dunya Shamel says:

    Many thanks, dear Paulo! Be Blessed, Hilal and her gratitute, love and power to forgive.
    You came in my dream, Paulo, as if im going to marry you… :) Much Love